I am extreeeeeeeemely sensitive. I have come to realize that this is one of my biggest strengths... AND biggest weaknesses. I feel as though am I easily able to empathize and sympathize with situations and people. This has happened numerous times where I will listen to a story and tear up without knowing the person, and don't get me started on watching TV or movies. I am a literal basket-case which is embarrassing. This is a constant source of Andrew's teasing. I am under the impression that I've always been this way since my mom has told me stories about how when I was in kindergarten I would come home and cry myself to sleep nearly everyday in her lap because two particular girls didn't like me and would never be my friend. I must confess that I don't remember this and have probably blocked it for some reason.
While being sensitive has made it very easy to relate with people it has also held me back which is incredibly frustrating for someone who has goals. I am terrified of people being upset with me. If someone gets mad at me I will almost 100% of the time cry no matter how much I fight it. For someone who already has to deal with the fact that she looks younger than she is, adding tears to that only serves to further hinder my ability to be taken seriously. Even better, I am unable to be stern with others because I know how it would make me feel if I was in their shoes. It's that whole treat others how you would like to be treated. That darn Golden Rule. Do you see what I mean? How can I ever be someone's boss if I'm incapable of being stern when needed? And dealing with irate customers? Forget it!
That's why I am better suited to dealing with children, yet at the end of the day I'm still going to have to deal with parents (i.e. adults). I either need a Poker Face or to somehow learn how to Brush My Shoulders Off... sigh.
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