Everything Changes

I have always been of the belief that it is better to listen than to talk.

I still have the same beliefs, it's just that unfortunately I don't adhere as well to them as I once did. I talk... a lot. Too much. I hear myself sometimes and want to tell myself to just shut up, but I don't. The word garbage continues to pour forth. I've been trying to figure out if all of the talking is because I held too much in for too long or if it's because I've just become a total brat? I'm starting to believe it's a combination of both. The really awful thing about it all is that now I've started to stay rude but true things out loud. I've always thought the things I have, but I was smart enough to keep them to myself. Ultimately what would be best is if I didn't have rude thoughts at all but I've been battling that for years and had no success. All of a sudden people are looking at me like wow I thought you were a nice girl but you are really rude. It makes me sad. I've got to find a way to zip my lips. I think what's happened is that from working I've seen how rude people can be and it has caused me to feel less kind myself. The incessant rambling even continues in my blogs. Eww.

More exciting news (for me, not really you) is that Courtney asked me and Sam to be her bridesmaids today! It was super surprising and really exciting! I'm going to keep it to myself until Michael asks Andrew to be one of his groomsmen. I love weddings! =)